so next week i'll be seeing one of my old matric friends - and i am scared as hell! I mean it was back then when there was rumors around school that i was pregnant. i was really sick back then...
gosh i really don't know. what if i am judged yet again!
This time for still living with my parents- not having a decent job. It's not that I don't want to work, I do.

A while back I had 2 health scares. once a fit because my body went into shock because of weight loss and then another 'manic' episode because of a hypo.
The above is the reasons why my parents just won't let me work!
I need my space, don't they realize that 1 day they won't be there and I'll have to take care of myself? How the hell am I gonna do that without a job, without money?
Thinking of this causes great panic and sleepless nights!

Feeling sick now, first thing first. get in shape before next friday when i'll be seeing my old friend...then...
Should perhaps mention my fears of not being able to take care of myself oneday, to my parents...little scared about what their reaction will be.

So i went shopping for clothes yesterday only to realize i am 2 pants sizes bigger! I hate what insulin does to me - makes me fat! Isn't it enough that i have to inject, test and eat healthy? Now i have to be fat too? give me a break here please God! I'm trying to be healthy, take my meds, can i atleast be skinny?!

So i decided to start my own blog.
I want to tell my story so far about my battles with my diabetes.

Be patient with me, this is a learning process for me!

I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes in 1999, age 9. My parents told me it will be ok, I have the same 'disease' as grandma...I believe that is what the doctors told them, well they could'nt be more wrong!

Things went well for the first year, then I got REALLY sick.
Long tory short, docs thought I had cancer (ended up being only a virus) this was not the case wich they only learned after a huge op!

Then in my matric year a girl told me i looked prenant, so i started making myself throw up after meals...
That is a story for another day

Today i'm healthy (kind of) just taking everything as it comes...
I have alot of issues to work through, so stick with me...